"You do not have to sit outside in the dark.
If, however, you want to look at the stars,
you will find that darkness is required."
-Annie Dillard
I’m terribly homesick. Homesick for a world that makes sense. Homesick for a place where the ground is fertile, the water is clean, and our neighbors' lives aren't harsh struggles for survival.
It's probably not good missionary etiquette to say life here isn't as glamorous as you might be thinking. I am inviting you into the hard days so that you will be standing by our sides when He does lead us by ways we have not known, guides us along unfamiliar paths, turns the darkness into light before us, and makes the rough places smooth. (Isaiah 42:16) You probably have your own moments of standing in the darkness, and we want to say to you what we hope you will say to us, "Therefore, my dear brothers and sisters, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain." (1 Corinthians 15:58)
The good news is I can't say, "I feel terribly homesick for a world that makes sense," without the Lord saying, "I know exactly how you feel." How much deeper He must have hurt than I do when he walked among poverty and sickness. How much longer his thirty three years of homesickness were to my one. How great was the cost, and yet how great was his reward!
"It is said that in some countries trees will grow, but will bear no fruit,
because there is no winter there.”
John Bunyan, Seasonable Counsel: Or Advice to Sufferers
So, here's to our darkness and our winter and the fruit that will someday come of it.
So, here's to our darkness and our winter and the fruit that will someday come of it.