What Scripture have you clung to?
Living in a high-risk country, there were occasionally what we called "security flare-ups." During one of these times, I woke up before the rest of the family and that morning I felt like getting on an airplane with my kids. Philip could figure out what it meant for the ministry and the future, but I needed to get my kids out of there.
Not wanting make any rash decisions, I thought, "No, I'm going to read the story of David and Goliath and remember we have a great big God."
Flipping there, my eye caught the heading to 1 Kings 19, "Elijah Flees to Horeb."
I wonder what God has to say about running away in fear? Was he disappointed in Elijah? Maybe mad because Elijah had just witnessed that whole Mount Carmel episode?
When I got to verse seven, I was in tears as the angel of the Lord said, "Get up and eat, for the journey is too much for you."
"I know, Lord, I know," I prayed. "The journey is too much for me."
God is not mad! He knows he's asked more than what Elijah has to give, so he feeds him until he has the strength to make it to the mountain of God. Then, when Elijah recounts all the hardships he's faced, in a lengthy desperate list, God does not deny it or defend Himself. He offers Elijah a spacial invitation of Himself.
In the midst of fleeing for his life, Elijah received an invitation to divine intimacy.
It's okay to run. He won't be mad.
When I went looking for a pep rally in David and Goliath, I found permission to flee in Elijah.
With that foundation of permission to flee if needed, I was able to make a home in that high-risk environment another two years.